Hello all. I don't like venting on the façade because I don't like showing emotions that aren't positve, but I need a vent that's readily accessable so here we go.

I have this thing for someone and it's really strong. Unfortunatly, the following get in the way:

• 1. They aren't ready to date.

• 2. If they were, they can't do long distance.

• 3. They haven't and don't see me as a romantic intrest.

The worst part about it is they're just so very kind to me all of the time. It makes this situation harder for me. I need to let the feelings I have for Him go, and because of that- and some words with Him and some of my other friends- I've chosen to put some distance between Him and myself.

The thing I didn't expect was how much it doesn't feel good. I've dealt with hard things before but intentionally putting a friendship I cherish on pause isn't something I've done, especially with how close a friend he is to me. Alas, My problems being what they are, I've got to look forward and keep walking. The world still turns, and time still flows.

Right now I've stated that a few weeks are needed, but I worry it will take longer. If I some how manage to find someone to get my mind off of Him, I'd be so very thankful. Until that happens (or if my feelings finally kick the bucket), I'll just kind of hurt and burn until I'm normal again.

Also, if You are reading, I'm sorry to blerb this onto a public facing space. No one really reads my site, I know that so I figure this is as good a place as any to vent. If you want me to remove this off my site lemme know and I'll replace the blog with an alturnate page.

Thank you for being understanding.